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Even Though I Miss New York
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"You grew wings, on your heart
But you let it out your ribcage,
and it flew into the dark
[...]
So choose my weapon and choose my way
It's easy saying nothing when there's nothing to say
Thinking about it everyday, starting to notice you're fading away." ~ KT Tunstall
Hey there, guys,
I think it's good to reflect. I spend a lot of time reflecting on my past as a means to more deeply appreciate the present-- I always have. I have learned not to get too caught up, of course, but my vivid memory frequently allows me to call to mind an experience and replay it as if it were yesterday. Yes, yes, as one can imagine, this is a bit of a blessed curse, but you know what? It also allows me to take something apart and really understand all aspects of it in a methodical, scrupulous manner. To study it. To really troubleshoot my life and learn from the things I can. I can draw deeply on my experiences because I spend a lot of time going over them-- people, places, words. Especially words. They drip down into my subconscious and emerge in my work more often than I sometimes care for, haha...
Sometimes I've had a hard time accepting things I can't learn much from, though... like the losses in my life I've faced. I have spent too much time ruminating over decisions I didn't (and still don't, really) understand and people that I gave far too much of myself to. Those things often weigh heavily on me, though I have usually-- thank goodness-- managed to keep them out of my work and away from my life. I have expressed them in private journals and in personal conversations among a few friends that I love very much. It is these friends I am thinking about tonight; I want to write about them here because they have allowed me space in their lives to keep my own together. These few people have often lent me a patient ear, and have learned to discern when to intervene in my conclusions and self-assessments. I'd say I'm indebted to them, but I know how much each of them hates hearing that, so I will merely insist that I am deeply grateful-- you guys don't often wander onto my DA page, but if perchance you do, know that I am appreciative that you have invested so much into me. Know that I will be there to assist you guys in any way-- just say the word, if I'm not already there!
I'd also like to take a moment to thank my boyfriend, who I haven't said much about online. Our artistic chemistry fascinates me; it's going on four years as of May and I love inspiring you as you inspire me. I look forward to our next adventure in New York and I can't wait to read the next chapter of "Assassination Classroom" together over dinner this weekend. I know I don't need to go in-depth here-- considering we just got off the phone, but I can't help but highlight how appreciative I am for the strength of your faith in me. Can't wait for your animation later this month and I'm so proud of you~! <3
Even if you're not really among any of the people I listed above, I appreciate you reading my work. Really-- that does volumes for me, especially if you've got time to suggest how I could go about making it better. That just makes me day, because there's nothing more important to me than continuing to lay the words to paper. This also means I will be updating soon too, because I have been doing just that: Laying the words to paper. And gratefully so~!
All in all though, I just wanted to update with a more personal entry because I've had a lot of good going on in my life and after all of the rough patches I've mentioned, I wanted to share some of the sweeter ones. That's what keeps us hanging on, eh? Onward and upward then. : )
Thank you for stopping by; even if we haven't met, it means bunches to me that you've taken time to read my words,
~ Teela Y.
"All of your flaws and all of my flaws, they may have been exhumed.
We'll see that we need them to be who we are; without them we'd be doomed.
There's a hole in my soul; I can't fill it, can you fill it?" ~ Bastille
But you let it out your ribcage,
and it flew into the dark
[...]
So choose my weapon and choose my way
It's easy saying nothing when there's nothing to say
Thinking about it everyday, starting to notice you're fading away." ~ KT Tunstall
Hey there, guys,
I think it's good to reflect. I spend a lot of time reflecting on my past as a means to more deeply appreciate the present-- I always have. I have learned not to get too caught up, of course, but my vivid memory frequently allows me to call to mind an experience and replay it as if it were yesterday. Yes, yes, as one can imagine, this is a bit of a blessed curse, but you know what? It also allows me to take something apart and really understand all aspects of it in a methodical, scrupulous manner. To study it. To really troubleshoot my life and learn from the things I can. I can draw deeply on my experiences because I spend a lot of time going over them-- people, places, words. Especially words. They drip down into my subconscious and emerge in my work more often than I sometimes care for, haha...
Sometimes I've had a hard time accepting things I can't learn much from, though... like the losses in my life I've faced. I have spent too much time ruminating over decisions I didn't (and still don't, really) understand and people that I gave far too much of myself to. Those things often weigh heavily on me, though I have usually-- thank goodness-- managed to keep them out of my work and away from my life. I have expressed them in private journals and in personal conversations among a few friends that I love very much. It is these friends I am thinking about tonight; I want to write about them here because they have allowed me space in their lives to keep my own together. These few people have often lent me a patient ear, and have learned to discern when to intervene in my conclusions and self-assessments. I'd say I'm indebted to them, but I know how much each of them hates hearing that, so I will merely insist that I am deeply grateful-- you guys don't often wander onto my DA page, but if perchance you do, know that I am appreciative that you have invested so much into me. Know that I will be there to assist you guys in any way-- just say the word, if I'm not already there!
I'd also like to take a moment to thank my boyfriend, who I haven't said much about online. Our artistic chemistry fascinates me; it's going on four years as of May and I love inspiring you as you inspire me. I look forward to our next adventure in New York and I can't wait to read the next chapter of "Assassination Classroom" together over dinner this weekend. I know I don't need to go in-depth here-- considering we just got off the phone, but I can't help but highlight how appreciative I am for the strength of your faith in me. Can't wait for your animation later this month and I'm so proud of you~! <3
Even if you're not really among any of the people I listed above, I appreciate you reading my work. Really-- that does volumes for me, especially if you've got time to suggest how I could go about making it better. That just makes me day, because there's nothing more important to me than continuing to lay the words to paper. This also means I will be updating soon too, because I have been doing just that: Laying the words to paper. And gratefully so~!
All in all though, I just wanted to update with a more personal entry because I've had a lot of good going on in my life and after all of the rough patches I've mentioned, I wanted to share some of the sweeter ones. That's what keeps us hanging on, eh? Onward and upward then. : )
Thank you for stopping by; even if we haven't met, it means bunches to me that you've taken time to read my words,
~ Teela Y.
"All of your flaws and all of my flaws, they may have been exhumed.
We'll see that we need them to be who we are; without them we'd be doomed.
There's a hole in my soul; I can't fill it, can you fill it?" ~ Bastille
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Tiny Teela Tracker Update
3 min read
Hey again, guys,
Obviously my ambitious goal was to have "Moonlight Shadow" completed no later than February, but that didn't come to fruition. Not a problem, though-- many of you have been quite patient and understanding; for that I thank you! It really is nice to have you all here. As for the story, I hit a log in the plot and have to make some big-writer decisions, but I will update soon. I also need to finish my profile, haha; as you have no doubt noticed, it is a collection of mis-matches boxes and has a pending notice on one of them.
On a different note, I have completed my graduate school applications. I am a little nervous-- while my writing sample included my most polished piece of work, said story also happens to be the most graphic and disturbing. The details make me cringe; I spoke with my friend who is getting her PhD-- She is *wonderful*~! Thank you so much for your editing and guidance~!!-- and she told me I have to own up to my horror-writing skills and take pride in my work. While I am trying to do so, it doesn't make me any less uncomfortable knowing that I have submitted such a polarizing piece. Of course, it does me no good to worry now-- it's already said and done. It is a genuine work of science fiction and serves as a good benchmark of where I am developmentally as a writer. We shall see.
Otherwise, I've been doing a lot of reading. Springtime has always been my most prolific in regards to my work, and I have no doubt that once it heats up, I will be right back in the saddle, as it goes. I want to have plenty of inspiration to draw from. One of the most important things I have learned recently is patience... For both myself and my work. If you struggle to get things done or with managing to get things done, I'd suggest this text: "The Art of Slow Writing," by Louise DeSalvo. Here is the link to the Amazon page where you can read more about it: www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/1250051…
Things are overall well on my end. I'm still working two part-time jobs, still writing, and I am still perfecting my recently launched web comic website. You can expect more content sometime this weekend.
Take care, and happy birthday to all born in March,
~ Teela Yoshi
Obviously my ambitious goal was to have "Moonlight Shadow" completed no later than February, but that didn't come to fruition. Not a problem, though-- many of you have been quite patient and understanding; for that I thank you! It really is nice to have you all here. As for the story, I hit a log in the plot and have to make some big-writer decisions, but I will update soon. I also need to finish my profile, haha; as you have no doubt noticed, it is a collection of mis-matches boxes and has a pending notice on one of them.
On a different note, I have completed my graduate school applications. I am a little nervous-- while my writing sample included my most polished piece of work, said story also happens to be the most graphic and disturbing. The details make me cringe; I spoke with my friend who is getting her PhD-- She is *wonderful*~! Thank you so much for your editing and guidance~!!-- and she told me I have to own up to my horror-writing skills and take pride in my work. While I am trying to do so, it doesn't make me any less uncomfortable knowing that I have submitted such a polarizing piece. Of course, it does me no good to worry now-- it's already said and done. It is a genuine work of science fiction and serves as a good benchmark of where I am developmentally as a writer. We shall see.
Otherwise, I've been doing a lot of reading. Springtime has always been my most prolific in regards to my work, and I have no doubt that once it heats up, I will be right back in the saddle, as it goes. I want to have plenty of inspiration to draw from. One of the most important things I have learned recently is patience... For both myself and my work. If you struggle to get things done or with managing to get things done, I'd suggest this text: "The Art of Slow Writing," by Louise DeSalvo. Here is the link to the Amazon page where you can read more about it: www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/1250051…
Things are overall well on my end. I'm still working two part-time jobs, still writing, and I am still perfecting my recently launched web comic website. You can expect more content sometime this weekend.
Take care, and happy birthday to all born in March,
~ Teela Yoshi
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Schedule of Events + Status Updates
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Cleaning out the Gallery~!
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Hello, everyone. I'll write a more detailed note about life and whatnot soon, but in the mean time, I hope everybody had a good holiday season. : )
I'm starting the year off by cleaning out my gallery. I will be either deleting or putting things in storage-- mostly deleting, I think. My first focus is going to be the old (and sometimes unbearably terrible) poetry.
Anything you've particularly liked or hated over the years? Let me know! And don't be afraid of hurting my feelings, I promise you won't, haha. : )
Take care,
~ Teela
I'm starting the year off by cleaning out my gallery. I will be either deleting or putting things in storage-- mostly deleting, I think. My first focus is going to be the old (and sometimes unbearably terrible) poetry.
Anything you've particularly liked or hated over the years? Let me know! And don't be afraid of hurting my feelings, I promise you won't, haha. : )
Take care,
~ Teela
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